What saddens me is that you were gone before it came to this. So I dream, wishing you were here. How can I walk away from the presence of someone who's no longer here? Please, do let me walk away from you. You'd probably say, "Suit yourself." But at that time, you called my name, didn't you? I ponder its meaning. Which way ought I to walk? Sleeping at the edge of memory's waves. I scatter love everywhere, but you are my one and only. I wish to do as you say, Yet that was precisely what you could not forgive. "That's simply not good enough," you said. You have never forgiven me. When someone enquired about me, you merely uttered words that could be taken either way. So, to you, who are no longer here, I say, "That's simply not good enough" I implore you, tell me. Say, "The reason I loathed you, the reason I left you, was because I always loved you." For I shan't say I love you anymore I beseech you, tell me: Why did you abandon me?
***(three asterisks) organ donor:tres(pass)complex